It's time to face the facts:
1. My son will never love me or care about me the way I'd like for him to.
2. I know that I don't deserve his love and care.
3. My son will never desire to know me, to know who I really am.
4. My son will never allow me to get to know him the way I'd like to.
5. My son will never allow me to be a real part of his life.
6. I will always be on the outside, peering in through the window of his life.
7. I know I don't deserve more than that.